I’ve been lacking it in my writing and in my life. Of course, recognizing that is only half the battle. I lay part of the blame squarely on the internet, Facebook and Twitter. I can click thru on an email or Twitter link and surface 45 minutes later not even sure where I started. (You’ll notice I refuse to incriminate blogging!)
But I realize that the internet isn’t the problem, just the symptom. The problem is me. And my lack of focus.
Before I had children I made lists, new ones every day. I remember a mother of two seeing my list on a counter and commenting, “You won’t get through half of that once you have kids.”
“What a *#&!@” I thought. “My life is not going to change once I have kids.”
Don’t worry. I’m not blaming my lack of organization on my kids. I’m the one that stopped making the lists. I’ve started making them again. But I don’t expect to make it through a full list these days. It might take me a few days to finish. And that’s okay. Even if I don’t follow them to a “T”, they help me focus on what I need to do, and really, the focus is what I need.
Scheduling is helping too. The day planners that have languished on my desk for years are getting used again. Now I’m not wasting an entire day on research, or reading or cleaning the house (yuk!). It feels good knowing I have time for everything if I just make the time for it.
Focus gives me peace. It allows me to be a better wife, a better mother, and a better writer. I still have my days where I’m frazzled, where nothing works out the way I planned. But at least I’m giving myself a chance. And focusing on what’s important to me.